Our Conquering Lion

The Conquering Lion
Shall break every chain
He will wipe every tear away
He will take all my hurt and pain
Conquering Lion
Shall break every chain
He will wipe every tear away
He will take all my hurt and pain
He will lead me to springs of living water
He will lead me to springs of living water
He will lead me to springs of living water

I wrote about this song in this post a long time ago, the day Olivia died. I have been thinking about her daily lately. I'm not sure why. My heart misses her and I get overwhelmed with thoughts of her and the pain of not having her here to call, spend a weekend with, laugh with, shop with, dream with, pray with and share my heart with. I visited her myspace page tonight searching for anything new I could find, something I didn't know. I want to know something knew about her. Maybe its that I wish she could share new pictures or blogs, if I could find something new, I would still have her here. I don't think any of this makes any logical sense but inside me it does. I want to read something new or see somthing new about her so I can hang on, not loose my thoughts and memories of her! I decided to listen to this song again, Conquering Lion by Grace Faulkner ( itunes it), nervous because I knew it would bring tears. I immediately go back to that late Saturday night in Olivia's room the week before she died. Marisa, Shana, Samantha and i were in her dark room, praying for Liv, begging the Lord for her life on this earth to last longer. This song came on and we just sang it to her. It was such a sweet time and I just want to transport back to that place, sit a little longer, laugh with Liv a little more and enjoy the sweetness of friends holding each other up. I am so thankful for the gift of friendship, what an amazing gift from God! As I listened to this song tonight I was reminded of my own brokeness, I don't have cancer and I am physically healthy, but my heart is sinful, its broken. Jesus has taken that, he has died so that I can live. He has willingly taken on the burden of my sin, my pride, jealousy and bitterness so that I can choose to walk free, no more bondage. I have the choice to walk in the freedom that His brutal death on the cross provides me.
The Lord is teaching me a lot about the condition of my own heart and its tough, I'll be honest, it makes me angry. I have to deal with the reality that I am sinful, its how I was born. There is no room to blame anyone for my feelings, actions, etc; I must take responsibility.
Its this process He is taking me on that will allow me to lay down these dirty, sinful actions and feeling of mine, He's taking me to springs of living water. Its a daily process, not a quick say one prayer event! I mean I know that years ago when I decided to believe in Jesus, I became His, saved but knowing Him, becoming like Him and walking in a way which is glorifying to Him is a process!
I hope you find encouragement in knowing that He is the ultimate Conquering Lion, He will break every chain and wipe all your tears away and take all your hurt and pain! He will be lead us to springs of living water...but it will be a journey! He is so faithful! Thank you Jesus!

Update

Mostly I just felt the need to update so...here goes:
*John has been wearing an arm brace since last week. The Dr. wanted to put him in a full blown cast but John refused...I know, totally not like John- ha! ;-). His thumb has been hurting for several months and he finally went in to get it checked out. Its either tendonitis or the gout...?? He has been very humbled through wearing the brace as it is an extremely minor annoyance. Let me explain: On Sunday we met a girl who was only supposed to live until October and she has probably the most extreme prognosis I have ever heard of. I don't want to give to many details because I do not have her permission to write about it but it definitely put lots of things into perspective in our life that day! It also reminded me of Olivia! This girl is 22, younger than Liv but just as joyful and ready to serve as Olivia and she seemed determined to not let this awful illness get in the way of letting Christ use her. Jesus has obviously worked in her life in transforming ways!
*I am taking care of 4 children this summer, it should be lots of fun and lots of practice ;-)
*We have also invited a girl to live with us for a few months. She is getting married this fall to a guy on staff. She will be moving in at the end of this month and I think it will be a great few months. She can get a peek into marriage life- ha!
*I had an interview with a Denton school yesterday and should know by the end of the week who they picked...Its actually been fairly easy to trust the Lord with this because I know there is nothing I can do!

I think that covers it, no silly dog mishaps to share this time.

Who really runs our house??

So part of me is embarrassed about the photos below....but clearly not enough to keep them to myself. ;-) I came out from getting ready this morning, calling for Lilly because I thought she might need to go outside....I walked into the living room to see this:
Now, as far as I know this has never happened and I totally should have yelled at her and made her get down the minute I saw her but all I could do was slowly walk to the camera and hope she didn't move. Obviously she didn't move, in fact she just stayed there and starred at me...it just cracked me up! I kinda feel like one of those moms who can't help but crack up laughing at something their children say and shouldn't!
And I promise I cleaned my coffee table! :)

Summer fun and summer salad!

Nat Drew, Emily Rozell(and Rev) and I went down to the square tonight for the Twilight Tunes, or something like that...basically Denton has live music on the courthouse lawn every Thursday in may and June! Its quite the event, everyone bring food or grabs pizza and wine from the shops on the square and we just hang out! There is a bounce house for the kids and people dance....we decided that they had to have been drinking! ;-)
Anyhow, we went and found The Chandlers ( Steven and Janet , I mean) and the Burkes...what a great time we had just chatting on the lawn for a couple of hours! I'm a sucker for silly nights like these. I love the Summer and cheap thrills like the Twilight Tunes in Denton!
Plus, I get to make delicious salads like this one: ( my mother in law always gives me the best recipes, this is one of those! Thanks Linda!!!)

Potato, Tomato, Corn and Basil Salad

Prep: 15min
Cook:20 min
Servings: 6-8 (maybe a few more)

1 lb baby red potatoes
4-5 med ears of corn
1 pint cherry or grape tomatoes (halved lengthwise)
1 small red onion thinly sliced ( 1/2-3/4 C)
1 large bunch of basil leaves-rinse, dry and tear in 1/2 if you want)
1/4 C olive oil
2 large lemons, juiced
1 t kosher salt
about 15 grinds fresh ground pepper

Place potatoes in a large pot and bring to a boil. Cook until just fork tender ( about 15 min)
Spoon out potatoes and place directly into a bowl of ice cold water to stop them from cooking.
Shuck the corn and break each ear in 1/2. Cook in the same water for 5-7 min. You want them tender but not soft!
Remove the cooled potatoes to a dish cloth to drain/dry
Immerse the corn in the same ice bath until cool.
Cut potatoes into quarters and place in large bowl.
Remove corn from water and let drain.dry.
Cut the kernels from each ear and add to the bowl.
Add tomatoes, onion and basil leaves. Add olive oil and lemon juice, S&P and gently toss! Serve at room temp or cool.

Enjoy!

Homemade Bug Repellent

We didn't have any insect repellent so I googled to see if I could just make something at home and here is what I found, plus it smells good! 4 hours out in the humid day and no bug bites!!!

Mix 1 T vanilla extract with 1 C water and spray on.

Invitations

Here they are...I said I would show pics when I was done so, here you go. This turned out to be quite the prpject because I didn't know that the scalloped paper would be too small to print on but the white ended up looking great as a layer to the whole invite!
I will be making some personalized notecards soon so be on the lookout for those soon!
(I blurred the address and phone number so no creepy un-invited guests show up)

**If you or anyone you know would like invitations or announcements made I would love to work with you to design a product that fits for you and your occasion. I am very reasonable and excited to help!

Surrender

Humble yourselves, therefore,under the might hand of God so that at the proper time he may exalt you, casting all your anxieties on him, because he cares for you. 1 Peter 5:6

A few weeks ago the Lord really humbled me, told me once more that He does love me and He does care for me, I forget that all too often! In fact it is that very truth that brought me to the Lord. I hate that I loose sight of that truth because it is when I don't really believe that that I begin to lean on myself, plan my own life and believe in my own capabilities, I try to live completely on my own abilities. And please don't hear me say that I can't do anything or that I think I am incapable. But the truth is that just like people in my life I will fail myself, we are not a perfect people. I don't know what is best for me and I am so bent to sin that I will mess it up. When I believe that the Lord loves me , cares for me and is my provider- that is when I trust Him and believe in His plan for my life. So a couple weeks ago the Lord graciously provided a very safe place for me to lay my heart at his feet, I let him have it back and He was so faithful. He used several people to remind me of truths in scripture saying that He will protect me, that He cares for me and that He won't give me too much.

Behold, I will allure her, and bring her into the wilderness, and speak tenderly to her. And there I will giver her vineyards and make the Valley of Achor a door of hope...And in that day, declares the Lord you will call me "My Husband", and no longer will you call me "My Master". Hosea 2: 14-16

He is so good and full of grace that he continues to come after me, to pursue me. Hosea has always kind of been my book of the bible. That is where I came to really know the Lord, his love for me and his desire to see me pure. And its interesting to me that even though I may not be turning to the same exact things as I did 8 years ago, I still really am. I am still looking to relationships - just different kinds, I am still looking to myself- just in a different way, I am still worrying about tomorrow- just for a different reason...but its all the same. The Lord longs for me to look to Him, to lean on Him and trust Him.

The Lord and I had a little heart to heart yesterday. There has been something that I have been holding on to in my life, something that I really want and I want it now (gosh that sounds awful) but the Lord has given me something else for now and who am I to try and change something I know without a doubt the Lord provided for me? I told Him yesterday that I will wait on His timing and that I will trust him, and not only just wait but be joyful and content with where He has me! It seems so simple, He is the God of the Universe, He knows what tomorrow will bring, He created the sun and stars and ocean, yet I have a hard time trusting Him...Oh Lord help me to trust you and believe you! Increase my love and joy for you, change my heart Lord, work in me!